Pre-Weigh In Thoughts + Re-strategising

Hi guys,

This week has been terrible. I’m not going to come up with a load of excuses but basically I fell off the wagon immensely. I definitely need to get my mind into gear and focus on what I’m aiming for. I definitely think I’m up for a gain (again!) this week. I’m going to re-strategise and I’ve decided that I’m going to point for the first half of the week and do filling and healthy for the second half. I’m really struggling with the weekends at the minute and I just go totally overboard. I think if I do F&H at least it will give me a little flexibility whilst hopefully getting me to eat the right thing rather than endless junk and then going over my points!

My aim for last week was to work on my sleeping pattern – major fail there. I’m going to try extra hard this week. Also OH has politely asked me to clear the freezer and cupboards so I’m going to try and forego my weekly shop (big emphasis on try) and use bits I already have. I’m not sure how well that’s going to work for fresh fruit and veg but I do have some frozen I think and some bits left over from my veg box. We shall see.

Until next time.. x

Weigh In Tuesday – 2lb on :(

Hi guys,

Weighed in this morning at 15st 4.75 lbs meaning a 2lb weight gain. I kind of saw it coming towards the end of the week as my sleeping pattern has gone haywire with my hayfever and some stressful family stuff going on. I’ve not necessarily been having extra meals when surviving on 3 hours sleep but I think during meal times my appetite has grown this week and I’ve not been drinking anywhere near enough water and overindulging on Pepsi Max’s in an attempt to stay awake during the day.

It’s ok though. Although my sleeping pattern isn’t quite back on track yet I’m going to try really hard to get my water intake up again and make sure I’m taking all my medication (I keep forgetting the odd one here and there and they seem to have an effect on water retention). Minimum 2.5L and I need to start exercising again rather than being lazy and taking my car everywhere which is the case at the minute! I will let you know how I get on!

Until next time.. x

Coping with Loved Ones During Your Weight Loss Journey

Hi guys,

This post is quite off topic from my usual posts as you will soon see. It mainly stems from some stuff that’s been happening the last couple of weeks that I’ve wanted to get off my chest and I’m just wondering if anyone’s having the same experiences as me.

I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned in my previous blogs but I’m the eldest of three kids and my whole family is pretty much super skinny. I’ve never fit in and my parents have always been worried about what I’m eating and how much I’m eating. I’ve never really stuck to a diet before Slimming World and it’s been quite novel to lose some weight instead of gaining it.

As you can see from my food photos that I eat quite often in the day. I’ve found that I’m more likely to stay on track when I’ve eat quite often and I’m less likely to binge. One of my Dad’s friends has been helping us out at work lately and he mentioned the other day that he always sees me eating (I tend to spread out my lunch over an hour having a bite here and there as I’m working) and asked me how many times I eat a day. As it happened to be a college day, I said I had planned 3 meals and 3 snacks and him and my Dad went on for around 15 minutes on how I’m eating too much and there’s no way I would lose weight.

I can be quite pedantic when it comes to little jibes like this and so (although SW is not calorie counting, I just wanted to make a point) I went on MyFitnessPal and logged my planned food for the day. It came to around 1800 calories. Both him and my Dad tend to have 2 meals a day, with one being a pot noodle. I tried telling them it’s not the amount but the quality. The pot noodle came to just under 600 calories whereas my lunch (which I was eating at the time) came to about 275 (4 ryvita, Philadelphia lightest, ham slices & cherry tomatoes).

Anyhow, it wasn’t this that really upset me. Yesterday, as you know if you caught up on my blogs, I weighed in at 3lbs less and I was really happy as it was what I was aiming for. When I told them and that’s what worked for my body, I was greeted with the words “3lbs? That’s wrong – your scales must be broken”. There was a lot of eye rolling on my part – but what hurt me the most is what my Mum said as she walked past (knowing how difficult I’ve found this journey and the struggles I’ve grown up with) “3lbs is nothing – I can p*ss 3lbs! It can’t be that hard!”

It just made me think how ignorant people who are close to us can be. I briefly chatted about it to my sister and she was like “oh, she probably just doesn’t realise it – no need to get all upset”. I think if it was anyone else, like my Dad or his friend, I wouldn’t of given a toss. It was the fact it was my Mum who knows my journey almost better than myself. She is fully aware I’m an emotional eater as she is one as well. She has been struggling with a recent weight gain and I’ve been trying to get her to come with me to class (though she’s having none of it) and so it does hurt when I feel like she should know where I’m coming from.

I’m very lucky to have a very supportive OH. I can’t imagine how difficult it can be when you don’t have someone there behind you and those close to you (probably not deliberately) have jibes about you and your weight loss. I know if I didn’t have that support, it would have probably set me back a couple of weeks. I would have binged and spent my evening thinking how my weight’s coming off so slow I shouldn’t bother and clearly it’s not making a difference by the way people are talking to me. That’s not to say I didn’t have a little more chocolate than I should have today but baby steps, right?

So I am more determined than ever to shift this weight. As my sister and OH said – these 3lbs add up and hopefully I’ll be half my size by the end of this year and I’m going to make sure I have a good week. I’m sorry for the long post and the dreariness. If you’re reading this and not actually in need of losing weight, if you do have a loved one who is, encourage them on their journey. Give them a compliment and it will make them more motivated that what they’re doing is working.

Until next time.. x

Sunday – Wednesday Round Up (7th – 10th Dec)

Hi guys,

Sorry this is a tad bit late. As you know from previous posts, I’ve had a bit of a rubbish week so getting myself to post this was quite hard! I guess this is how I’m changing my life around though as it’s making me more accountable 🙂 I’ve had an OK day today (Thurs). I’ve had massive stomach cramps all last night and today (probably from all the junk I’ve been eating!) so I’ve not eaten as much as I would normally and it’s given me a chance to get back to basics.

Sunday

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Breakfast: congee with beef slices, ginger and preserved cabbage (s)

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Lunch snack: soy salmon pieces

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Dinner: pork bone soup with green radish (s), Chinese mushroom (s), carrots (s), tomatoes (s) and celery (s).

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Dessert: 3 clementines (s) and an amaretto coffee

Monday

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Breakfast: congee with beef slices, preserved cabbage (s) and spring onions (s)

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Lunch: pork bone soup with Chinese mushroom (s), carrots (s), celery (s), tomato (s) (3 syns with pork ribs) and a banana

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Snack: clementine (s) and a banana

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Dinner: we headed to Red’s in Leeds with a friend which was hastily rearranged as we were supposed to go next week. I had a few sips of the bourbon bacon milkshake, the starter mixed ribs, the juicy lucifer burger with fries (which my OH had and I had some of his pit beans), frickles (really disappointing so I only had a couple) and slaw. As you can see I left a lot – I had about 3/4 of the burger and half the slaw. Somehow I lost myself and ordered dessert (pecan and salted caramel peach cobbler with ice cream) and it was so sickly sweet I only ate about half (of the cobbler part).

Tuesday

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Breakfast: I ate a pandan swiss roll slice (cringe!) and some congee with beef slices, preserved cabbage (s) and spring onions (s).

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College snack: cottage pie and spiral fries with a pepsi max

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Dinner: a mix of congee and soup – beef slices, tomato (s), celery (s), spring onions (s), Chinese mushroom (s) green radish (s), carrots (s)

Wednesday

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Breakfast: cup of tea (HEA) with o% natural yoghurt with strawberries (ss), banana and cherries (s)

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Lunch: yakisoba teriyaki noodles

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Dinner: soft shell crab with wasabi mayo (the weirdest thing I’ve ever eaten and much of it was left on the plate!) and a beef massaman curry with garlic rice, jasmine tea and a diet coke.

Yeah, so this week has been one hell of a write off. I feel really rubbish for it too. What I’m dreading is that next week we’re out again (for Christmas lunch with my Mum and sisters and to a friend’s work do at Nando’s) which isn’t too bad I suppose but I think I just want to curl up in a ball at home and not eat until next week (which is obviously unsafe and not actually happening!). As I said, Thursday hasn’t been too bad – I haven’t been to college tonight so no rubbish to choose from. Tomorrow I think I’m trying to make Big Mac in a bowl so that will be interesting. I feel I’ve gone majorly off the food plan for this week and my fridge just seems ridiculously full!

Until next time.. x